nightmare.

I had the worst nightmare ever.. It started when i went to sleep in my room. The day was kinda gloomy, and suprisingly i woke up at someone's place. It was near to my house, eventually i know that place. But the place were abit diff then it supposed to be. While i was trying to figure out, the door open and someone did come in. It was a teen boy, he locked the door and try to rape me. well i manage to escape, i ran away, taking every rush step on the floor to the stairs. The weird thing is, he didnt went after me. I stopped and wonder, then a girl scream from the house. A little girl scream, as if she's in pain.. I recognize that voice. As i ran back to that place to save the lil girl, another boy came towards me. He say "lets go save her" and i said "glad you are here dafi"i dont know him but i just call out his name, as if i know him for a long time.

Fear and tears, i felt the path is too far away. The girl scream in painful. Finally both of us broke thru the house and i found out, that rapist rape the lil girl, and that lil girl is my lil sist... Dafi punch him on the head, and he collapse. I was there, looking at my lil sist helplessly, i hug her and cry.


I woke up from that nightmare, look around me and thank god it was just a dream. My lil sist was asleep at my mom's room. Nothing happend.. It was just a dream.. But i cried the whole night.... It was scary and i was scared.


It seems....


Real..

BASKETBALL RULES DUDE!

Hei, whats up? hot noon? i know ritee. lastnight my boyfriend kinda ignored me like " :)) " and i try to figure out something to cheer the gloomy chat, so i asked him everything and the last thing i get " :) "
well yeah, be it! Im fine! i texted "goodnight" and thats the end of my love story AND HERE COME BASKETBALL.

well here's about today. lastnight i had a argue with my boyfriend, so today i decided to play basketball to let go of my hot tempered. IT WAS GAGPGPGP AWESOME! though, i fall and my knee bleed cause i try to get the ball from qhairie, he accidentally push me and i fall instead catching the ball, lol but i did still play basket with a big hole on my sport trousers. haha.

now, im tired and i neeeed some sleep, im starting to feel the pain on my knee.

later!

This gotta BE AWEESOME!

whats upppp? dusty page. maaan, exam do really put me under pressure. etc etc. another nice saturday morning with cup of milo and a chocolate, in a tube. sounds breakfast to me, well hooray. I JUST top up my line like on tuesday and i spent three dollars among these days? this facebook is trying to suck my credit. Lol. No offense.

well see, yesterday day-DAY october slowly drifting away, now bang shoots the november, then kaboom the december. time, getting so fast. I even cant get enough rest. haha dont take that serious, it was just a metaphor.

taking all the fresh air i need, its cold. saturday rain, awesome!

just check facebook, i somehow make someone pissed off. wont take the blame all to me, i was innocent for god sakes i was just trying to be friends, likeee hei, "im trying to be friends, whats up?" unlucky me it was a girl tho, i rather handle boys attitude, girls soo not into this friendly friendship compound of mine, they do this some sort of line between themself, telling "this is me, the territory, im the queen" shucks, no awesome, get that!

someone texted me lastnight, for all i know i dont know what to say. haha aite skip skip.

back to plan one, lets stalk hayley, plan two, lets stalk gday, plan three COME ON AND BE AWESOME ALREADY.

byee, update later. wasaaaa-bi!

gone crazy with paramore tickets.

HEI. someone booked paramore ticket for me. i dont know it was for real. but someone booked it for me likee OH-MY-GOD! i was going to say yes, but whoops, final exam start around the date like OH-NO! darnit, so reject the tickets. but thanks to azique stiffler, hope you enjoy paramore live concert in KL.

my mood is kinda smooth cause, i just buyed two paramore limited edition badges this morning, SUWEET!

i was hoping next for the tee's , anybody promo in brunei ? Lol !

yknow, if you're reaaally into the band, you'll live with it. like me, i love them!

RIOT!

sakit hati? yes bodoh.

Hey.

sweet, and then people can swollow easily. how about bitter? idiot!

i know, it might sound nonsense but yea, behind those paragraph, its meaningful to me!
my own big sist even complains about you, see you've change alot, not me! i wont admit it. what have i done? hei, i had enough, yea?




i know, dont like me that much? so aite, just go with the flow. be famous, who cares!

been true to you for whole my life, now ditch me! lie to my face, YOU CANT HIDE IT! I KNOW!

pathetic.

take me, this is all that i've got, this is all that im not.

hey.

lotsa things happend lately. unexplainable problems that keep on coming to haunt me. currently listening to " scars " song. This one fit my situation. Like what the lyrics play in my ears 'it doesnt matter who you are, we all have our scars'

but who cares yea? this is all that i've got, this is all that im not. just let it go, your expectations and explanations, they make no sense to me. we all have our scars.

obsessi para remaja.

HEY!


this is october, obessi month! my classmates were crazy over p-p-p-PARAMORE! well so do i :)))

I want tee's printed with "RIOT" all over it. that's so i-must-get! Dont even mention about hw's snickers.
i wish money is something that i can grew in a pot, YOU WISH!

paramore will be lived on 7 oct at tsb bank arena, new zealand. and on 19 at kuala lumpur, likee whaaa, im soo jealous! :s why such a beautiful band cant perform in brunei? soo not updating -.-'

i get this whole freaking idea writing about obsession. it was from one of the hujan's song, obsessi something, so i was just like "hey, obessesion is awesome" while my dad concetrating. haha.

im your biggest fan, not you, but PARAMORE! hahaha dont be so confi for yourself, you wouldnt get the comfy at all :P

riot, will be update! <3

sweet phone call.

phone call with baby deee was greaaaat (y) his sweet tone make me smile ! awww. make a call from 1250 till 2, i think, and the result is credit fagging low. a dollar and sixty -.-' nevermind tho, i get to hear his voice atleast. so, imma be rarely active for facebook either do msn. hee.

a couple more hours and here comes 25! its been 8 months and 29 days. haha. and still my heart beat fast for you, baby dee. theres no any sign of regrets from me byy, seriously im soo happy with you, for all the things you've done for me, no one treat me the way you did. I feel like, amazing around you!
gahhh, and now im misssinggg you baby deee. :')

I LOVE YOU!

tomorrow preparation, nasi goreng ayam. will be cook by me for A-Forces. eid mubarak celebration at school!

and happy teachers day, to miss harayati, you're the best eventhough i hate p.o.a. to teacher suzy, you knoww i alwaaaays love hist like i lovee you. to cikgu bibi, i love you. to cikgu maswati, i know my malay is not really good, but im tryingg here :< forgive me yea?
to mr.tony, i always laugh when you try to talk about me on the board, i knoww it was me all along!

happy eid mubarak and teachers day to serasa highschool !

sushii ! update later.
bye.

ALERTT.

HEY. im kindaaa boreddd ritee now. someone in facebook just asked me to make twitter account. tweets that tweets this, likee whats up with twitting? well, rite now i rather texting in facebook. simple and easy tho, facebook is a lil bit crazyy now. haha

ouh, thanks to baby deee for the lovely cupcake you bake yesterday baby, it was delicious. i adoree thaat sweetheart <3

hey, guess what! Five times ten equal to fifty, and thats my mark for math. pretty dumbb roitee? well atleast i pass for the first time in form four. Hahaha, im happy with eighty nine for hist and seventy seven for science. Well, im happaay!

im walking on sunshine, whoaaaa!
wiggy woggy waggy whush whush. Haha, euwek euwek. Imitating annoying orange, but i donno how to do beatbox :p

I like when people get to know me very well, It feels so comfortable to talk with them. SO GET TO KNOW ME FIRST. HEHE! :D


wasssabi ! later aye? Goodbyee!

UPDATE :D

heyyyaaa. its been awhile. phuh dusty ih. last yesterday on tuesday was tragic. know what? i fell sick when i woke up in the morning, i cant move my head and stand properly, it was suck! my dad bring me to clinic muara, and they admit me for three hours, betambah aing -.-'

the next day, i thought i would be fine, but still! :s
i went to clinic again, and admitted agaaain for three hours. then they refer me to ENT ripas, and wheehaha they gave me six type of med. badluck -.-'

today, i went to ripas. hfftttt. =.='

let me change the topic, hey! guess what, cooking lesson! wagagagaga.
ayam sambal was easy peasy, but yeah i havent cook it by myself ;p

today evening.
with big siblings and mom. <3
I'd still remember this "badukang makan taie" LOL!
hahahahahaha.
and now, waiting for orang beraya. Indaaa laku bah rumah ah. i miss him bytheway. :D

bah, imma off for now. asal update. mwaa <3

Eid Mubarak story.

Takbir raya pada pagi yang indah menandakan syawal sudah tiba. meraikan perjuangan kita berpuasa selama sebulan, kerinduan pada bulan ramadhan terasa, amat ganjil apabila kita mula menjemu selera pada awal pagi lagi.


OKAAY! I sounded serious. haha. gosh, Im tired! cleaning the house the day before raya. I mean haiyaaa. :S

first raya, Family gathering at belait. it was sooo friggin AWESOME! but i didnt get to see mami and the family :( Thought you guys were coming. The cathering were double triple awwthummy nyummy. i love the rendang and the icecream.
the most awesomes marvelous wow unbelievable was, THEY'D STILL GAVE ME ANGPAU! although im super duper tall, they'd say "seorang ani bagitia" and i was like, "im lucky".
BY the time 7 pm like that, The house were full with unknown people. i throw my smile to the crowd. LMAO! joking.
AT 10 pm, arrive at muara. IM REALLY TIRED.
now 11 pm, IM GOING TO SLEEP. <3
Tomorrow, off to belait again.
and soon, I'll update <3

Ramadhan dah berlalu, kini syawal pun tiba. puasa sebulan dah sempurna, kita beraya! maaf zahir dan batin- ann jeffry.

the selfish the sensitive. :)

i just dont get it. i cry many times this lately. there was something that keep my heart beat fast. im soo tired. it hurts. i wait till midnight and i feel so lonely. i can only hug tabby. i hate it, this pain. the pain that you couldnt understand, the tears that you wouldnt care of. if i could hide, i will hide. such sensitive i was. and all i get is nothing, im wasting my tears. i need to get some rest. :)

wednesday morning. :)

the sky seems soo perfect clear today. sigh. where is he actually? i gave him a text lastnight and i waited him in facebook, but no sign of him. :s

is he mad or is he going to do something? I hate this when it happend. Seriously, i waited for him till midnight -.-'

im alone in this big room, well.. not perfectly alone, i got tabby rite beside me. my eyes it hurts.

im not fasting, due to girls stuff. 7 days off! :))

emmm, wish he could text me now. :/

Dyyy.

pain and guilty.

the pain , its real. the tears wont stop. some words were spoken clear but i cant stop the tears. i knew i shouldnt doubt for such a thing, i click the image for save and its hard to delete it now.. let it be for awhile... though its hurt but its okay, its my fault baby. be happy and cheer up, yea? i always love you.

by abby..

i understand althought i let tears fall. :)

my full time, thought it would be wonderful. i cant stop smiling when i know he will be with me today. one wall post appeared on my wall that he was glad im back, and i smiled though after that he were off, i guess.. but it doesnt matter at all, my happiness on that second push everything out. while waiting, i browse his profile, and i smiled again. imagine three times smiling alone infront of a screen, how happy i was at that time. he spent alot of great times and that even makes me more happy and smile... again... the highlights went on view picture of him, so i click rite away, well im used to it already. all the picture was his colleagues, glad he was having so much fun. i click on page 2, its the same but when i browse down the page, the last picture showing him with his friend, a girl.. just both of them in that picture, i was shocked but i understand, that was his friend though my heart beat fast i cant stop my finger on clicking to next page, they were getting closer to each other from one picture to every picture of them. the room was full in silence, i click save, and there it was in my phone.. i watch it again and again.. i felt it.. i felt tears.. but i whisper to my self, i understand.. they were just colleagues friend.




if your love one were tag in a picture, showing both female and male getting closer.. you guys know how i feel..

i let this all out here, so i can feel better....

baaaaaaaack from paper work. :)

Im soooo sorryy that i havent update for such a loooong time. exam exam exaaaaam. phewwww. and now im back, nothing can stop me! Nyahahaha and im going to spent my time with dyyy my love. hehehe ;D

unexpectable :')

we were laughing together in my moms bedroom, me and riley. At first, i showed someone's blog at my mom, she even judge it. talk about radio voice, and then the door bell rang, I ran outside to open, it was erah (my younger sister) back from afternoon school. Her face were in hurried, i spotted dad's handphone on her hand, so i grab it. I know something bad happend i can feel it, till she say "it's akong(granpa)" , i went back inside to tell mom its a text msg from aunty. she took the handphone and read it one by one. We were inattentive by that moment, while mom read the text msg "naa, babh ia betahan a...(continuos)" and then she cry, she put the phone down, i were flabbergasted but also curious. Riley pick up the phone and read the msg, i know it's about akong, but what is it?


she read the last word that i would never expected in my whole life, "cancer" i can feel tears running down on my cheek, this isn't a joke anymore.

it's serious...


this is the first time ever, i saw mom cry so bad. Something incentive and i know i must do something. so i hug her tight "mam, be happy. he need us" mom just shook her head. :s

she keep on crying, I even cry with her. this is not working. i felt like the whole world pointing at mom. so i hug her more tighter to make her feel better.

i've texted my cousins and second family, they were shocked and aunty duri (mami) even cry. suyil tell me about it. Cousin were all out of mood and eager to visit akong.
i lost my mood too, akong can't stand too long, his backache is serious. we'll visit him soon.

To mom and mami, cheer up :'))
To all my cousins, Be strong, he need us :'))

Let us pray for akong, and god please, I pray nothing will happend.



AKONG, WE LOVE YOU GRANDPA. AND BE STRONG FOR US! :'D

marvellous o-rangers ;))

heeei ! today was AWESOME last course for prs at smb. At first i didn't agree to be grouped in orange team, but things change. orange wereee cooool! i have alooot of new friends. fir , sal , muas , syaz , and jingga team! you guys were DOUBLE TRIPLE AWESOME!

afternoon lunch, nasi ayam penyet for prs. just like what sal have said "basar ayam nya". yes, it was a BIG CHICKEN DRUMSTICK! wheee ;DD

then the boys and half of the girls went out to pray, most of the girls stay, including me -.-'

after zuhor prayer, we continue our activities till 3.20. 10 minutes break, with COCKTAIL TART! i think it was prs tea break? except it wasn't a tea, but orange jus. orange break? ;P

last final touch, activities "caunselor and clients, briefing about "asking skills" boreddd a, i can see idzaan sleepy :P

then we were asked to close our eyes, and then there was this sad song, and then people get gloomy eyes, some cry! :s

and that was the end of my day, closing ceremony with cg. azrin's selawat. photo taken, video taken, facebook email taken.. Hahahaha. MARVELLOUS O-RANGERS, I LOVE YOU GUYS! ;D

Inspirations ;))

I adoooooooooooooooree 'W's Blog, it was awesome! i remember it was december, currently second blog were used. boredum strikes, and i realize im in the middle of torturing my brain. holding phone and tweeeenggg, internet! giggles.

Browsing google were not so called fun, so i check my facebook! JENG JENG! now, thiss is the moment my inpiration about to happend. first scroll i saw a link to a blog, it wasn't 'W's though, someone hafz or something. I admit, i yawn for like countless time ;s

soooo, i continue on scrolling to the bottom of the page, leaving nothing, till i found SOMETHING! welll not quiet a thing, but SOMEONE'S BLOG! It attracted my eyeballs since then, seriously. I can feel the feeling of 'AMAZE' . This blog i was inspire of have a symbol of a BIG 'W'. i think~ thats the name? probably a duplicate of batman? ;p sortaa, whatever then. The facts is youuu can find 'W' anyywhere in that person blog. My inner self were satisfied with 'W's blog, crapp rite?? iknooww, but thanks 'W'!

I ADORE YOUR BLOG, 'W's :))

This is not my first :))

since my first and second blog were deactivate due to some problem such as hacker and everything,i decided making my third account :)) so be happy with it aye?

well, I'm Ann J. Meth, view me on facebook "Ann J. Methanne" or search for "Anny Mj". Not much, juuuuuust orrrrrrrdinary!